I'm not here for your entertainment

first, i miss talking to papa. i miss being with my papa.
i just dont know how to tell him that i'm verrrryyyy sorry
for what i've done that might have made him felt so embarrassed :(
i'm really so sorry papa. i know. its not easy to forgive and forget
about 'this'.but i'm seeking for your forgiveness. anyway,
i'll find a way to fix things up again. i've made this mess and now
i'm gonna clean it up. i've hurt alot of people who cared about me
just for this one particular person for nothing. and all i get for return
is a shame. regret. and all. but i swear. it'll never happen ever again.
hey jantan tak gune, you'll regret one day. i swear to God. atas nama
Allah, kau akan terima balasan yang teruk gila babi. i'm just soooooo
freaking mad. because of you, i've got to go through all this. i was having
a great relationship with my family before you stepped into my life.
but now, look at what i'm standing? none of them would even look at me
the same way they did to me long ago. and all you could say was
"alasan you tak logik" pukimak kau lahhhhhhh!! i hope you choke and die.
kalau ikut hati aku, memang aku nak tulis nama kau je and everything about
you. tapi nasib baik lah aku ni ada perasaan and otak, aku fikir kau jugak.
kalau tak memang dah lama kau mampussss! takpe.
what goes around, comes around kan? biarlah balasan tuh datang sendiri
kat kau. and i wish you the WORST! and may God never bless you, sayang :)
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all i wish for now is to get back to the time where things
were alot better. where i dont have to worry about anything.
and the times when i was never sad. but what can i do? i'm so sorry
to those people that i've hurt. i wasnt thinking at that time. and it all
happened too fast. WAY to fast. and now i really regret :( i really hope
papa and others would forgive me.