Birthday Wish.

i've thought about this over and over again. well, i wanna change things.
i wanna study. haha i know, you're like "chelsea? study? GET REAL"
i bet. right? but whatever, i dont care if you believe or not. yes, back to
changing things up. i wanna make my life so much easier. i wanna be
someone new. well, i'm gonna try to change into someone better. i know,
i've been hurting people. and thats not gonna happen anymore. i'm gonna
do my best on my life. that means, studies, relationship with families and so on.
like for instant, i realize, i'm the only one who's not close to any of my Dad's
family. and for that, i'm gonna try to fit it. yeahh, no matter what it takes.
i just wanna make my parents proud of me and happy. cause that makes me
happy too :) okay. next, i know, i've been treating some people like they dont
mean a thing to me when they actually do. i'm so terribly sorry. i like troubling
people as i realize, saying things or doing things without thinking what people
would say or feel. but like i said, i'm gonna change. relationships? guys.
just so you know, i am NOT lesbian ok. haha but i'm just not interested
in having relationship. its not like your gonna last forever right? sorry. no
offense. but i just dont wanna get my heart hurt. maybe just 'for fun'
relationship would be okay. but not serious. i dont wanna rush things up.
i still wanna enjoy life with ALL my Families and my Girls. i see people my age
crazily in love. i dont feel jealous or whatever, its just that, i dont believe in love
but in destiny, in fate, in the magic of the universe. and yeah, sorrry if this may
make you angry or what. i'm just saying what i'm feeling :) and so,
all i want is to be happy for the rest of my life.
thats my only wish.

Toodles,